The strength of a Woman’s vulnerability…
“Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it. Embracing our vulnerabilities is risky but not nearly as dangerous as giving up on love and belonging and joy – the experiences that make us the most vulnerable. Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.” B. Brown
In the past when I thought of the word vulnerable, I always associated it to weakness. Unfolding my layers and understanding the truth of being perfect in my imperfection has allowed me to change my thought pattern of vulnerability as a strength and not weakness. It has changed the meaning of what I thought was to what is. Understanding that I am who I am today because of experiences whether good or bad.
As a woman who has been a pillar for so many, sometimes I forget that taking care of myself in the process, is part of the process. You cannot give what you don’t have and sometimes there’s so much guilt held inside for the simplest “No”, but it’s so important to know that I can’t fix anyone, and not to hold the guilt when their goal is not accomplished.
Being enough for myself has been a constant battle for as long as I remember. Being present in the moment has been a constant battle for as long as I remember. Trying to help those that are closest to me that I wanted to help and just couldn’t get through to them has been a constant battle for me. There’s always that “ah ha” moment…. The freedom of realization that comes when you don’t take it personally: A feeling of the biggest EXHALE.
Who I think I should be and embracing who I am has been one of the finest lines that I had to cross especially getting older and accepting the changes whether it be physically, mentally or emotionally. Embracing the truth and being o.k. with my vulnerability has been something that I never thought would be a strength. To be Vulnerable has taught me to be humble, has allowed me to show courage, self love and self worthiness and most importantly understanding that imperfection is o.k.
Written by Alexa Cheekes
